First Blog!!!

I have read my wife's blogs for some time now. There are things I have learned about how she is feeling or her point of view on subjects from reading her blog that otherwise didn't share with me. I have decided that I want one of my own. If you couldn't tell from the title of my blog I am in the Army, I have been for over 19 years now. For one reason or another I have yet to deploy to a combat zone. Some people would be screaming GREAT! Those people are called civilians, those of us in the military are in it to serve. Not sit back safely at home going wow I am SOOOO glad the military has given me a college education and a career but I am giving nothing back. I want to be up front with all the Soldiers I have trained over the years making sure they get home safe. Well I finally get my chance, Some time in the next 6 months I will take a long plane ride to the sand box. I am going to blog about my feelings and experiences leading up to that time. I realize no one may want to read this but then again there may be some that do. I am not going to be politically correct. I am not going to say what will make people happy or feel better. This blog is about me. I plan to use it later to try to explain to my three wonderful children, no really they are great, and peaceful, and quiet when they are SLEEPING! Other than that they are loud, can be obnoxious and just plain crazy! I love them with all my heart and will miss them and their loud craziness more than I can ever describe. I will also miss a huge part of me, she is my better half, my rock, not to sound corny she completes me! I am not half the person let alone half the man without her. I not only want her by my side as often as possible I NEED her there. I am going to miss her more than the children but in a completely different way. I have already had to leave home for a few weeks here and there and have had a taste of what it is going to feel like to be gone and I can say this now "I don't like it!" I hate going to bed alone, I hate sleeping alone, I hate waking up alone. It sucks, it really does. I have a strong urge to deploy and do my job with the rest of my brothers and sisters in the military service, I have no urge to leave my family for a year. That is what I signed up to do, that is what I have the calling and want to do, so that is what I am going to do! Well that is about it for my intro. I am going to try to post daily about what is going on. I am not going to discuss where in the sand box I am going or what I do. Just thoughts and feelings during the extra work and training that I am doing.